Oh My Goodness...I'm an Adult!

I have felt the exact same since I was fifteen. I'm serious. Certain aspects of my life have changed drastically of course, but all in all, I still feel fifteen. Growing up I think I looked forward the most to becoming sixteen and driving. I thought with a license I would gain some kind of halo of maturity. I thought sixteen was SO OLD! I also looked forward to the amazing powers of being able to go to sonic whenever I wanted. This went hand in hand with my license and I just didn't know if life could get better! Of course by the time I actually turned sixteen, I was too busy with ballet to actually go to sonic and let's just be honest...ballerinas didn't eat sonic. Let's be really honest...ballerinas don't really eat much at all. I will say I did eat but drastically less then I wanted to and sonic was out...along with carbohydrates, ice cream, and all my favorite things. But this post is not about ballet or eating, so I shall move on.

Next, I thought surely in college I would become really mature. I mean not only would I know I was mature but everyone I told I was in college would know how mature I was. Well, in college I must say some of my most non-mature moments shined for the world to see. I made rap songs on my answering machine. Instead of just saying "leave a message" I rapped a message. It was great, especially with my whiteness and my lack of all things "ghetto". My roommates and I hardly ever spoke to each other in normal voices. Oh no, we had our own very "mature" voice we would do to communicate. We sounded a bit like baby frogs. We also frequently made music videos of ourselves lip singing to our favorite songs. We also would make up skits and video ourselves and laugh for hours watching them. My best skit was when I starred as the "Wachiwachitawa" the woman of the sewer. I had my own dance that went along with it. It was a highly mature moment:).

Well after graduation, I got married. Now if I hadn't been mature in college I SURELY was then. Well, I have been married for a year and it hasn't happened yet. What really proved this to me what birthing classes. I was "mature" enough to get pregnant surely I was mature enough for birthing classes. Imagine this: a room full of pregnant woman bouncing on birthing balls with bellies protruding. Beside them sits their "supportive" husbands looking awkward and nervous. We all were trying to relax every part of our bodies and listening as the Douala smoothly told us to relax our heads, fingers, necks etc. I was TRYING to relax and breath but all I could think of was if Adam was really doing this. I would peek my eyes open and almost burst out laughing as I could tell he wasn't even trying but just pretending. It was all I could do to keep my laughter in. Another very "mature" habit of mine is laughing. If a situation is slightly awkward or makes me nervous, I laugh. It is horrible and gets me into trouble way too often.

Well, I am finally in a very mature state of life. We are house hunting! Now, maybe being able to buy cheddar peppers from sonic on my own wasn't mature but surely buying a house is! With every house we look at or think about I feel like I'm being yelled at "You are an adult! Look how big you are!" The problem is I'm still the same old me. I still laugh uncontrollably at all the wrong moments and would LOVE to still make music videos. This is a very adult step in life but I think I have to admit, I'm just never going to be truly mature.

That said, I could barely sleep last night because I was dreaming about what color paint to put in each room of our future home. I woke up excited but a bit stressed. I had a lot of ideas that are going to take a LONG time as in my dreams each room was at least two different colors. I even dreamed the whole process of buying the paint, taping the rooms, and painting with a baby. Wow... no wonder I woke up exhausted!

Yay for house hunting and moving on to my next not so mature stage of life! It is fun and a bit scary! It makes me just want to go to sonic!